I'm heartbroken over the state of the world. I know...that's such a cliched statement but it's true.
I don't know how we've become so detached. Why we scroll....scroll....scroll....looking for what? WHAT THE FUCK ARE WE LOOKING FOR. I'm guilty of it. I have extreme trauma. I rarely ever admit that out loud. It's embarrassing. I sometimes can't even force myself to leave the house. Very few people know this about me and even less know why. What I do know, and am taking time to learn more about, is how Social Media can be a trigger for victims of trauma. I know it is for me and it makes my life and my relationships very difficult at times. As an artist it is a necessary tool. I would not be as successful as I am without it. Since the election though, and since all the video, popups, look at me look at me look at me photos in your face all the time. OMG.
It's addicting and in all the wrong ways. It causes depression. Insecurity. Idealization issues. On and on. I can honestly say that I hit a wall. I thought my art was starting to hit a wall. No one was liking anything, I was having panic attacks. I was engaging in negative self talk etc...etc...
So...I've stepped away to take care of my broken heart. To not take my shit out on my art. My art is just fine and it really doesn't matter if it sucks or not. It just matters that I make it. No one even has to see it...but if you are on here and you like my art, if it makes you smile, reminds you of home, or love or life.....then that my friend is enough. No like button can convey that. xo